Past and Immediate Future

I had a bad dream last night that I got into an argument with my younger sister. She did something to really piss me off and I told her I was done with her. I woke up with a headache (again) and a little disoriented. I hate waking up from dreams like that, i never feel quite right.

This is the 2nd or 3rd dream I've had where me and my sister get really into it. I love my sister to death, and don't know why I'm dreaming these things. I got a voicemail from her yesterday, which may have prompted the dream. I'm also wondering if this is residual from past feelings. Having two intake appointments one right after the other has brought up a lot of things from the past. One of those things is my frustration (I can't think of the actual word I want to use) over her seemingly favored position in the family. These dreams may be a way for me to express these feelings in ways I never could in real life. I don't know. Maybe I'll bring it up in my next therapy appointment.

I'm headed out...well, I'm late...to a work retreat. It's an overnight and I'll be back tomorrow afternoon. I hope I'm able to keep it together. I don't know how the stress of constantly being "on" and the sadness I always get when I'm away from my husband will affect my experience.

Wish me well!

Bad Dreams

I had two very unhappy dreams last night.

The first was of my wedding and graduation. In my dream they happened on the same day. Nothing went right. Some people missed the wedding and my dad was the only one at the graduation ceremony. Everyone else arrived late. And then somehow it was my birthday and no one recognized it. At my graduation ceremony my dad and a professor sang happy birthday to me but really softly so no one heard. Then my husband took off with his family and I didn't see him for the rest of the day.

The next dream I don't remember the set up but my father had put together a video slideshow for some reason. It ended up being a play back of all the bad things that happened when I was younger. There were some good things (that never happened in real life) but mostly sad events (that really did happen).

I don't know what my mind is doing to me, but it makes for a bad start for a Sunday.